Messages about the subject of beliefs have been coming at me left and right lately. Before the opening of my third eye in 1987, my world was ruled by the belief systems that I carefully constructed with the help of the Lutheran Church, my parents and all the other persuading influences I had encountered. I went through life fitting my experience and perceptions into those belief system boxes. That worked for me until 1982 when I saw the movie "Gandhi." I still very vividly remember the moment at the end of the movie when I realized that according to my beliefs, Gandhi would be in hell because he did not believe in Jesus Christ as his one and only savior. TILT!!! DOES NOT COMPUTE! I simply could not believe that any kind of god could damn such a holy being due to a technicality.
My mind screamed in agony over this first belief-challenging dilemma and I genuinely feared the lightning strikes from the god I had angered with my doubt. The mental and emotional turmoil over this inability to reconcile this new information with previous beliefs went on for days and I was very uncharacteristically sad and almost depressed. This tiny peek outside my box revealed the possibility of a more expanded reality than I had considered possible. I felt the vastness of the consequences that would come in the wake of abandoning that belief system. Its roots ran very deep and pretty much defined who I was at that time – A Lutheran girl from Whittier. Not believing anymore would have a major impact on my life. It all seemed so daunting that I almost threw out the new input to go back into the security of my box.
At the end of the torturous battle, the quest for truth won out. I threw open the boxes and stepped out into the light. The undercurrent of fear of lightning bolts persisted for quite some time. I was excited about exploring this new expanded reality, but it was still scary unfamiliar territory so I only managed baby steps. I started having thoughts about the possibility that what many refer to as God is actually the compilation of all things. I felt myself guided to read certain books and articles and began my own process of discerning truth via being able to feel a vibrational resonance, a palpable sensation, in response to what I was reading. (There really is a ring of truth.)
Five years of baby steps got me beyond the reach of the old belief system, but I found my mind constructing a new belief system based on the new input – a bigger box, but still a box. I can now look back and observe my mind's desire for order and the security of believing things are a certain way that drove it to replace the missing structure.
When I read about the Harmonic Convergence in José Argüelles' book, The Mayan Factor, the top of my head tingled so I paid attention. My focus opened up an avenue of communication, which guided me to be at the Stonehenge replica in the Columbia River Gorge on August 16, 1987. When the first ray of sun came up over the cliff that morning, it shot through me like a flaming sword that woke up my third eye that had been slumbering for ages. That event blew away any remnants of any belief systems because my own experience took me way beyond the confines of the previous beliefs.
When the dust settled and I started receiving information through my open antenna, I was warned about the dangers of belief systems and was asked not to permit my mind to rebuild a new one, no matter how expanded. Belief is faith that has not been tested against personal experience. Therefore if an experience comes along that does not fit the beliefs, either the mind finds ways to invalidate the experience, or the whole belief system will come toppling down, resulting in trauma, casualties and a loss of all that effort. Exactly that had happened to me. During this time I also found enlightening information about belief systems in Robert Anton Wilson's book Cosmic Trigger in which he points out and explains that any belief is a limitation because it defines our reality according to what is believed to be possible by a very limited mind. Belief systems do not allow us to be open to what is. If we can get beyond the need for the security of the structure, we can be present with our own experience in every moment and discover what it is in its fullest potential—as opposed to trying to make it fit into a preconceived reality box with limited capacity.
We are coming up on the twenty-third anniversary of the Harmonic Convergence and we are full-on into the transition going from the ending of a cycle to the beginning of a new one. Mass consciousness, the collection of all the belief systems on the planet, lives in an energetic band around Earth. Each of us is hard-wired into this band and constantly sends output and receives input. The next step in this transition requires the dismantling of the forms of agreed-upon reality that are obsolete and do not serve us anymore but are still tying up a great deal of energy due to people's belief in them. The concepts of there being possibilities beyond the restraints of our beliefs which give us much more to work with are being fed into mass consciousness, and many people are responding. Many—such as the Questers—are becoming aware of the powers among us and are avidly exploring their potential. This is blowing the lid off the band of mass consciousness and allowing it to expand its capacity and access more energy from assorted sources. This evolution of consciousness is happening while we speak.
I have recently been observing the melting away of structures and a much more fluid state of energies that are released. By keeping our own energy free of structure, it can also be in that more-fluid state that allows us to experience what is in every moment. This gives us access to the masterful adaptability skills that are available to us only when we are in the moment.
I feel very blessed that my limiting belief system was pushed aside by my own experience because I am so grateful to be experiencing so much more than I ever believed possible.
